Today was a happy day. I wish I could say I was high on the joy of the Lord, but I must confess I was high on cappuccino. As some of you may know, when I have an iced cappuccino (had to look up the spelling on Google) in the morning, I'm "wired" all day, get very excited and talkative and happy, and usually can't sleep very well at night.
rudbeckia and purple coneflower
I've been quite lethargic lately. Gerard thinks I'm probably a bit depressed. So he walked to Tim Horton's early this morning and picked up a small iced cappuccino, hoping it would lift my spirits as it usually does. I only drank half of this small drink and I still felt much stronger, more alive and energetic than I've felt for a while.
I felt inspired to do some gardening. Gerard helped me tie back the hydrangea (had to Google that spelling too) that were weighed down from the rain. And I cleared out a whole lot of spent flowers. It felt great to go at the garden with this new energy and joy.
re-tying the hydrangea
Our pastor came for a visit this afternoon and those visits always help us keep things in perspective. He asked us for an update, which made me realize that I should probably give an update here on last week's appointment with our ophthalmologist. First of all, while sitting in the waiting room, I realized, from looking at the wording above each doctor's reception window, that I have been spelling optomologist wrong all this time and it should actually say ophthalmologist! (had to Google that spelling too when we got home - how did I ever manage without Google!?).
So the ophthalmologist (this is going to take some practise!) examined my eyes and said that structurally they are fine. However, there is probably some inflammation somewhere as a result of the radiation. I wasn't sure I understood everything he said, because we had already figured out the inflammation part ourselves. I must have missed something. So I repeated what I thought he said, and he said, yes, that's right. Leaving the office we were no wiser about what was going on than when we arrived, except that we should continue using the eye drops and come back to see him in two weeks, hoping that by then my vision will have improved.
the garden is so colourful with lots of phlox and rudbeckia in full bloom
My vision has improved a bit since last week. but it is still misty. Fortunately it is clear enough to allow me to read and to use the computer for short periods of time, with effort. I'm thankful for the vision I have, but it is easy to get discouraged. We have an MRI scheduled in a few weeks, to follow up on the radiation. So in a few weeks we should have some information on whether the cancer is back in remission or what exactly the status is now.
We pray for trusting the Lord with our future and for the courage and ability to adjust to these new circumstances. And we continue to pray for healing. Thank you all for your continued love and prayers.